Since this blog is good therapy for you me right now (and since Snowy is sleeping beside me and I don’t want to do anything to disturb him) I just wanted to check in with you briefly to say that he slept well and is the most comfortable today that I have seen him in over a week. We upped all of his (already) heavy meds by about 30% and we’ve found a sweet spot where he is very comfortable but not drugged; however, that just makes me feel all the worse because today he almost seems like he’s back to normal.
But I have to remind myself that whatever condition he has (vet thinks it very well may be cancer) that it is not going to go away and long-term massive of doses of drugs to feel normal are not the answer. My big fear was that we would wait too long and that he would get to a point where the meds wouldn’t help him and he would die in pain. At least I know that when he leaves, it will be in a happy, pain-free state.
For those of you who will miss his stories and his writings–have no fear. He just informed me that he has plans to write a few posthumous posts so we will have those to look forward to. I think that in his wise doggy mind, he knows that those posts will be good for his grieving mom and all his lovely, loving blog friends.
In fact, he had quite an experience yesterday that was kind of his last hurrah that was funny and a little alarming at the same time. That story–and many others–will all be told in the days to come.
The vet is due this afternoon at about 4:30–just a few more hours.
I cannot begin to say how very heartbroken I am and how much I have come to love this goofy, precious, funny, annoying, beloved, loyal, loving, expensive, co-writing friend I have been blessed with.
This is Snowy’s mom. Signing off.
We are praying for you all. We love you!!!
Sitting here with tears running down my cheeks. I’m sure some of my pets will help Snowy learn about Rainbow Bridge.
Sharing tears with you all.
I can connect with you as we had to have our mini schnauzer put to sleep a number of years ago and i still tear up and especially now with Snowy.
Snowy has been blessed to have been loved by such a wonderful and loving family. My heart is hurting so much for you.
No words – just tears
My heart aches for the Smith family. 🙁 Snowy, know that you are well-loved! Would you please say Hi to my Tinkerbell and Callie at the Rainbow Bridge for me? My human mom is there so she can take care of you, Snowy!
Praying for peace for all of you. Today would have been my parents 67th wedding anniversary had Daddy not gone to heaven 3 years ago.
So sorry. Thanks for all the stories. We have a “fur child” too
So long, Snowy. You are one loved little fella!
Oh sweet, sweet Snowy! There’s another sweetheart at the Rainbow Bridge…her name is Madison. Please tell her that her mommy misses her with all her heart. Play together until we meet you all there! Love and hugs to all of you…you will have many people praying for you today and the days to follow.
So sad that we have to lose loved ones here on earth…human or not. I am thankful that God gives us sweet memories and lots of pictures. Hugs!
Tears falling…heart aching for all of you.
Oh Becky, Sarah and Steve…I have tears in my eyes, as I’m sure you do, too! I am so sorry to hear this. I know it had been coming, but it doesn’t make it any easier. Lord’s Blessings to you all!
to love and to have been loved is one of the greatest joys. you all have been blessed. Thinking of you today. Becky
God Bless, I can’t put my sorrow for you into words
My heart aches for you and your family. The days ahead will be tough but knowing that he is no longer suffering makes it a little bit easier. I had to put my dog down 2 years ago and I still miss him so much. Remember all the good things he has given to you and your family. I will be thinking about you guys today and the days to come.
Snowy will be sooooo missed by so many people! I sit her at work with tears sliding down my face. Please know we share your pain. Please give Sarah and extra hug for me today!
so so so very sorry, 🙁 my heart aches for you all
I don’t comment often but I have been reading for a long time. Sending lots of thoughts, prayers, and hugs to you today as you say goodbye. You are a great doggie momma who gave him as much comfort as possible.
Heartbroken and so horribly sad for all of you. Every pet owner knows exactly what you are going through right now. As difficult as it is, there is no greater final act of love we can offer our pets than to end their suffering. Snowy has such a bigger than life personality…what a huge hole that will be left by such a tiny little creature. Godspeed, Snowy…it will be impossible to ever forget you.
I sit here with the tears streaming down my own face and Snowy is not even my dog. I can feel your heart break and know how hard today is for you. So glad that you were able to find that sweet spot for him – that he will move on to his doggy reward with no pain, at home, surrounded by his family; just as it should be for such a loving, loyal companion. There would be skeptics who would say he was “just a dog”. They, obviously, have never known “a dog” like Snowy! His little doggie self has been a true blessing to the Smith family; a fur bundle to cuddle when the pain was too much, a loyal listener when the tears flowed; the holder and keeper of secrets whispered in his fluffy ears; the fierce protector from squirrels; the faithful companion on countless trips to school; the steadfast sentry of the writing chair. Thank you for sharing him with the Smithellaneous family.
Heartbroken for all of you.
I will be praying for you this afternoon! Our little furry friends are family. They love unconditionally and completely. He will be on the Rainbow Bridge with all of our pets that are there waiting. My 7 year old daughter told me that our Raymond will be waiting to play with Snowy on the Rainbow Bridge.
Becky, it is the right time to do the most difficult but most loving thing you have ever done for that sweet doggie. He will be peaceful and strong for all of you and he will wake up in Heaven’s grassy fields knowing he had the most wonderful and important life a little white fluffy dog could ever have been blessed to have. I hope you feel all of our love today – especially sweet little Sarah. It is time, Becky. I am so very sorry. Don’t worry, he will be whispering stories in your ear for years to come – you may think it was your thought or idea but, nope, it was SNOWY making sure you are not alone in this blogging world. He has a reputation to keep up, you know. Love to all and Snowy, you are the best.
I’ll be thinking about you all today. I know first-hand how hard this is. It’s also the kindest thing we can do for our beloved pets when they don’t have any quality of life left. It’s one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make (many times over). Someday when you’re ready, Snowy will have a paw in finding just the right furbaby to help fill the hole in your hearts. Snowy knows how loved he is, and we all know how well you’ve loved and taken care of him. Sleep sweet, little Snowy.
I don’t know what to say but I’ll be thinking of you all day today, I just know it. I am so sorry!
Few dogs have the opportunity to touch as many hearts as your precious little guy. He will be missed all around the world. And I know that some of MY best friends from years past, including Honey, Mandy, Taffy, Callie, Graycie, Rusty, Sadie, Mattie, and Bash, will all give enthusiastic wags and kisses to Snowy as he crosses the Rainbow Bridge. Love you….