Song Story (Revisted)

May 1, 2024

Here’s another post from the past.  If you’ve ever listened to a song and been curious about what goes into writing one, this post will shed light on that. It also a post that contains so many emotions–from despair to elation.  One of my favorite posts ever.

When Meagan and Nathan were visiting us in March, she took me out to lunch for my birthday. As we were sitting and chatting she said, “I have a favor to ask. Would you be willing to write a song for our wedding as a surprise for Nathan?”

Well, you have to understand that I had not written a song in about nine years–since Sarah was diagnosed with cancer and we left the road. I did not feel at all qualified to write anything as special as a wedding song. But how could I say no to such a precious privilege?

I told her I would be willing to try and she went on to say, “I’m picturing the first verse being written from your perspective, maybe looking back to when he was a boy. The second verse would be written from my perspective as his wife and the chorus would have lyrics that would be appropriate for both a mom and a wife so that we could sing it as a duet.”

A couple of weeks after that conversation, Meagan sent me an email with a few sentiments on which to base her verse and the songwriting began in earnest. Over the next few weeks, I spent hours at the grand piano in the church, writing down words, scratching out words, reworking melodies, and even shedding some tears over all the emotion involved. Sometimes I’d get discouraged and say, “I just cannot write this song!” and then other times I’d get excited when things started to coalesce.

Finally, after about eight hours of work, I had a rough draft ready for Steve to listen to. As I sang, I was encouraged to see that he also got choked up on the verses, just the way I did. (A songwriter always feels happy when she is able to move a listener emotionally.)

Steve complimented the song and said that he loved the melody and the overall feel of it; however, he added that he didn’t think the chorus was as strong as the verses. We sat down at the piano together and started working on a rewrite. When he had finished with his input, I spent a few more hours on it myself and finally had a semi-finished rough draft ready. (This was about three weeks before the wedding so the deadline was looming large.)

All during the writing process, when I was feeling inadequate and not quite up to accomplishing such an intimidating task, I kept comforting myself with the thought, “Well, this song is not going to be a big feature of the ceremony; it will no doubt be played in the background while they’re doing something else and no one will even notice it.”

However.

My cell phone rang one day and it was Meagan. She said, “Oh, I have such a great idea about the song you’re writing!”

I tentatively asked what that great idea might be and she said, “I have decided that I am going to have your song playing while I walk down the aisle! Isn’t that just wonderful?”

I closed my eyes. I felt my heart flutter in my chest. I saw my life flash before my eyes.

Did I just hear my son’s future wife say that my song was going to be used as the music for the processional? The Big Important Processional? My song? The song I was so sure would be somewhere way in the background of the ceremony?

Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear.

I didn’t think I should share my chaotic misgivings with the excited bride-to-be so I just said, “Meagan, that’s a great idea. Let me look at the song again before I send it to you and just make sure the lyrics and the melody are suitable for what you’re envisioning.” We chatted a few more minutes about other wedding stuff and then hung up.

I sat there at the kitchen table with my phone in my hand and stared out the front window as an amalgam of anxiety, joy and consternation rippled through my brain. You have to understand that this conversation took place just a couple days after I’d had a song critic rip apart one one of my most beloved songs, Like A Blanket.  My confidence level as a songwriter had dipped to an all time low.  (You can read the post about that experience hereWord Burner Club)

That evening, I headed back over to the piano to play through what I already had and to my joy, I realized that the words I had written for Meagan’s verse would actually do nicely as a processional. (Big sigh of relief.)

I spent a couple more hours fine tuning the lyrics to make them even more appropriate and then sent the song off so that Meagan could hear it for the first time. After a little while she texted me and said, “I love the verses; they are just perfect!”

And that was all. Nothing about the chorus. Which meant that I still had some more work to do.

We talked the next morning and she said that she would like the chorus to talk more about love and emotion than it did, so I set off to work some more, looking for words that were evocative, joyful and love-filled but still suitable to be sung by both a mom and a wife. It was a bit challenging and my confidence started drifting even lower. And lower. Just two weeks to the wedding and what I had wasn’t working. And even worse, as much as I pondered various ideas and solutions, I couldn’t seem to make anything work.

One night at about 8:30 . . .

I sat alone at the piano in our dark, empty church auditorium and worked for over an hour with no results. I finally lay my head down on the piano and started crying. I was so frustrated and intimidated by the songwriting process, especially after all those years of not writing anything. And in my head, I heard echoes of the online critic telling me I was a horrible writer who wrote disaster pieces instead of masterpieces.

The wedding was coming up soon and the song wasn’t working and I had no idea how to fix any of it. I was so incredibly honored to have been given the opportunity and yet I was starting to believe I just wasn’t up to the challenge.

After a few minutes of sinking into a morass of creative self doubt, I quietly prayed, “Help me, Lord.” Almost immediately, a tiny thought stood up and knocked at the edge of my consciousness and I lifted my head from the piano and spoke aloud into the quietness, “Why don’t I just get rid of the chorus altogether?”

In its current permutation, my song was set up in the most common form which is verse-chorus-verse-chorus. That’s fine for most songs. However, by virtue of where it comes in a song, a chorus is almost always bigger than the verses and provides much of the lift and the drama of a song.

I realized that it wouldn’t work to use that formula in a song destined to be a Wedding March because of the roller coaster effect of a quiet verse followed by a big chorus and then back to a quiet verse again. In a song used for a processional, there can only be one Big Moment, and that is when the back doors swing open and the bride enters the sanctuary.

In just half a second, I saw my problem and in another half a second, I found my solution. I suddenly understood what would give the song wings.

I finished the song that night . . .

and sent it off to Meagan the next day with a note explaining why I had taken out the chorus. She told me later than when she read the email she couldn’t quite imagine what I was talking about. A song with no chorus? But when she actually heard the recording, she understood the concept. And loved it.

When we got to Florida last week, she told Nathan she was going out to “run an errand.” The errand consisted of meeting me at her parent’s church, along with her brother-in-law, John, who would play the song on keyboard and oversee the recording of it. Even though I had written the song at the piano, I told John I would like him to play it on the recording since he is an accomplished keyboardist and could throw in some wonderful musical extras to really make it shine.

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On the morning of the wedding . . .

the bridesmaids came down the aisle to music played on the piano. As that musical piece finished up, my Mom Verse of the recorded song began to play while Nathan and his groomsmen walked to the front of the church and the flower girl and ring bearer started down the aisle. Nathan, resplendent in tuxedo-clad handsomeness, looked happy but slightly puzzled as my voice came out of the speakers; he was expecting the Wedding March which had been played for the rehearsal the night before.

However, his puzzlement quickly faded away when the song began its transition into the key change and the grand chords leading into Meagan’s verse burst out of the speakers. The congregation stood, the back doors swung open and Meagan appeared on her Dad’s arm, smiling like the sunrise–even as her voice came over the speaker pledging her love and her life to the man who was waiting for her.

I reveled in the sight of her loveliness for a moment and then I turned around to catch a glimpse of my son’s sweet face. It is a face I know so very well and up until that moment, I thought I had every single Nathan expression memorized.

I was wrong.

Nathan was trying so hard to smile but he could only cry, his hazel eyes filling with tears and his lips trembling with emotion. The look on his face was as though he had just caught a glimpse of something quite glorious. And he had.

As I watched him I wondered if maybe part of the sweet emotion of that moment was due to the fact that he and Meagan had made and kept vows of purity to each other until marriage. But whatever the reason, there was a holy electricity in the air, a settled peace, a deep joy.

That moment was meaningful to me personally on so many levels. As I stood and watched Meagan walk toward my son to the music I had written, I was grateful to feel my songwriting insecurities fall away.

All I felt was the happiness of two jobs well done—raising a son and writing a song.

Here’s the song; lyrics are below.

ONE  When you were just a little boy

You brought me flowers, you brought me joy

And I never thought those days would ever end

But here you stand, all grown up now

To take a wife, and make a vow

That you’ll love her as a husband and a friend

I remember younger days, when you would go outside and play

And I’d watch you through the window and I’d smile

Rosy cheeks and skinned up knees, “Will you kiss my owie, mommy, please”

How I love the man, who used to be that child

Yeah, I love the man, who grew up from that child

 

TWO    Today I’ll pledge my life to you

Today I’ll stand and say, “I do”

I will take the name of the blessing God has sent

Can’t help but stand in awe of what

The Lord has done to build our love

I have prayed for you, my husband, and my friend

I can still remember when, we first met, you were only ten

And every time we talked, you made me smile

And now a new day has begun, oh what a treasure you’ve become

How I love the man who used to be that child

Yeah, I love the man who grew up from that child

 

TAG:  Love is the song, we are the melody

Today we’ll start writing our own memories

 

ENDING (It was Meagan’s idea to slightly re-write the first part of her verse and include it here; it was a perfect way to end the song.)

Today we’ll pledge our love so true , Today we’ll stand and say “I do”

We will thank the Lord for the love that He has sent

Can’t help but stand in awe of what, The Lord has done to grow our love

I have prayed for you, my husband, and my friend.

 

Here is Meagan walking down the aisle to the song when we played it during a “pre-rehearsal” rehearsal. (In other words, Nathan wasn’t present for it.)

So there you have it. The story of a song I will never forget–one I will always treasure.

 

What about you?

What areas have you faced insecurity in? What has contributed to it? What helps you get past it?

What task have you faced that seemed insurmountable and yet you overcame it?

What were some special moments at your son or daughter’s wedding you would like to share?

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16 comments so far.

16 responses to “Song Story (Revisted)”

  1. SueEllen says:

    I am so enjoying revisiting these blog posts as you reshare them.

  2. Ann O. says:

    Just beautiful, Becky! Thank you for choosing to share this again. It’s extra special, because we know more of the Meagan and Nathan story! Before you know it, one of those grandkids will be asking Meagan, or YOU, to write a processional for them! 

    My husband and I will celebrate 38 years of marriage this year. We’ve overcome struggles, but the beauty is we can look back, appreciate, and be proud of ourselves that we stuck it out for the long haul. We have a depth to our relationship I’d never thought possible. It wasn’t always easy! 

    You described feelings of elation and despair. Such is life. I think the older we become, the more we learn to deal with shifting emotions. The bad doesn’t usually last forever, and we find lessons in the process. It is so hard to watch our children deal with the struggles of life. I remind myself frequently that it wasn’t always easy for me, in order to accept that their struggles are just part of their lives. I try not to carry their burdens so heavily upon my shoulders. Not easy!

    • Becky says:

      Ann,

      Congratulations on almost 38 years of marriage. And you’re so right–the wonderful depth that you enjoy in your relationship didn’t just happen from good and happy times. It’s the struggles that create the richness in our marriages and makes the happy times sweeter.

      And you’re so right about how difficult it is not to be tempted to shoulder our children’s burdens when they are struggling. As you said, we have to remember that struggles are part of life–ours and theirs, both. But thankfully struggles don’t last forever.

      Thanks for your comment and sharing your experience and words of wisdom.

  3. LeeAnne says:

    That was just beautiful Becky!! You did an amazing job! It brought tears to my eyes. Thanks for sharing. I don’t remember the original post so love the revisit!

    • Becky says:

      LeeAnne,

      I’m glad I revisited it so you could “visit it” for the first time. I appreciate your words of encouragement!

  4. Lisa L. from GA says:

    I remember when you did that and shared it. Now, looking at the wonderful family the two of them have and the life they have together, it’s even sweeter.

    • Becky says:

      Lisa,

      You’re right–it does make the post all the sweeter to re-read it from this perspective of all these years later. How quickly time goes by for all of us!

  5. Patti says:

    What a beautiful song and great memories for you and Nathan. and Megan.
    I didn’t have kids, but my husband was able to officiate at a grandsons wedding and that was really great.

    • Becky says:

      Patti,

      It is extra, extra special to get to officiate at a family member’s wedding. I’m sure there were a few additional tears in your eyes getting to witness that.

  6. Eswim says:

    The song is absolutely beautiful! It brought tears to me eyes. I am a girl mom and never had to “give away” a son. Wonderful job by you all!!! Thanks for sharing!

    • Becky says:

      Eswim,

      Yes, I have to agree it is a different feeling for a son to get married in comparison to a daughter. I’m not usually happy to know that I made someone cry but I know they were good tears. 🙂 T

  7. Sharyn L. McDonald says:

    Oh, wow. That was absolutely beautiful. Great word and music. It brought tears to my eyes and couldn’t help remember when my son and daughter walked down their aisles. My daughter had fallen away from the Lord – even though she was going to a Christian college – didn’t feel she would ever love anyone and that they would love her, and it was when she returned home and saw a guy she had had a crush on when she was about 15 and he was 21. Long story short – they married and have 4 adult kids and they are now grandparents (yes, she came back to the Lord and is serving him with her husband). My son married a young lady that did not know the Lord when they started dating, but she went forward in a Billy Graham crusade and accepted the Lord. Unfortunately she passed away about 15 years ago from kidney failure. She did have a daughter from a previous marriage and he is now dad to her and we are grandpa and grandma.
    Nathan and Megan have a wonderful marriage – you can see that in pictures – not perfect of course like all of ours, but a great relationship with not only each other but kids, friends and family. Thanks so much for sharing.

    • Becky says:

      Sharyn,

      I loved hearing the stories of your children and their marriages. Isn’t that just how it works when someone goes away to college and doesn’t find anyone then returns home and marries a home town guy? Love that. I’m sorry to know your daughter-in-law passed away; what a difficult time for your family.

      I know you enjoy those grands; aren’t they the best?

  8. Dale Tousley says:

    Oh Becky, that was so beautiful, I have tears streaming down my face, so much has changed for us in the past year, losing my husband, my kids growing older and I am so sad my daughter will not have her father to walk her down the aisle. What a special gift you gave everyone.

    • Becky says:

      Dale,

      I can’t imagine how many “firsts” will be and how many missed moments following the passing of a spouse. And a daughter’s wedding will be such a huge one–so many tears of remembrance on that day but then the joy of looking forward to making new memories to honor her beloved dad.

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